The hospice light is flawless. The steel in my room gleams. Gold embraces the linoleum. Outside, butterflies tease the bougainvillea with tongues. The eastern hills are green. Crows fly by without faces. A red hawk perched on a fence devours a pigeon. The wind carries the smell of blood through my screen. Pine trees have fallen from last nights storm they lie helpless in the next lot, their roots burning in the sun. These trees have joined me on the horizontal, a level where the body can be easily poked and prodded. This place breeds vertical nurses, transfusions, doctors whispering in doorways. A white coat photographs me nude on my canvas. I am a shutterbugs delight, a deconstructing subject. The lens blinks my mortality. | |